Monday, August 26, 2024

YuYu Hakusho Manga: 010 The Forbidden Games!!

Damn, and just after the Olympics too! Not that I want to comment much on THAT rat's nest of a controversy farm. It's always a drama-fest, mind you, but this year's Olympic Games seemed to really take the drama to a whole new level of superfluous. Hopefully no one is getting SUED over these forbidden games like in recent IRL events, because I don't think I have enough snark to cover it. Might have to reach into my reserves...

That kid whose name was like an afterthought? 

After a short note from YT explaining that Shota was a bullied boy who was depressed over the death of his old dog, and encouraging readers unfamiliar with this story to go back to chapter 4 in Shonen Jump #3 (over a doodle of the editor pictured kicking YT in the head and telling him to keep drawing), we get a look at a smiling Shota chatting with his former bullies/new friends. Yusuke reckons Shota looks like he's doing alright, but Botan's normal chipper smile is absent when she says she doesn't know about that. Yusuke argues that one needs to just LOOK at Shota to see how much happier he is. Botan says this is precisely the problem - she sees a dark shadow lingering behind him despite his smiles, and that's always a bit of a concern for her.

The title spread is laid out behind this, with a large illustration of a little girl in what looks like a frilly nightgown, her hand held out toward Yusuke kneeling protectively over an unconscious Shota and sweating it up under the overbearing figure. It's an... interesting image. 

Cut to Shota walking along next to his friends, who are still chatting and laughing to each other, but he's got a blank expression as he looks up and to his left. His gaze is fixed on a window of the house they're passing. 

The concern increases...

In response to a hysterical conclusion that Shota has been possessed by a ghost, presumably from Yusuke, there's a delicate statement that actually, it's more like the ghost LIKES Shota. Botan elaborates that ghosts tend to looks to nice kids for empathy, and while Shota has found the courage to deal with life, he now has to deal with a new threat from the afterlife. An irritated Yusuke points out that the goofy look on Shota's face when he waved indicates that he doesn't feel threatened at all, and Botan agrees with a nervous laugh, the implication of him having a little crush on his ghost friend written in the panel too, just in case you didn't get it from the subtext. 

Night falls, Shota is asleep in bed, and a strange black circle hovers next to him. A voice calls his name, suggesting that they play, then a hand shoots through the black portal and pulls his spirit from his body with a series of unsettling screeches, the voice continuing to insist he come and play. This is some horror classic Poltergeist shit.

At least she brought some toys.

Yusuke is lurking outside the house in the air, recapping Shota's leaving his body in his sleep to go play with this girl in his dreams, and asks Botan what the harm is in this - it doesn't seem overtly threatening, because clearly, he has never seen horror classic Poltergeist. Botan answers that there isn't a lot of harm here, if one has a sixth sense, but asserts that Shota doesn't have that, and is just a "normal" kid. Putting "sixth sense" kind of phenomena on a pedestal as though it is only experienced by "special" people aside, Botan asserts that this means the ghost is FORCING the soul/body separation. She adds that this is damaging him, like a knife to his body, except it causes no pain, and his body is going to fail eventually if it keeps going. Very concerning. 

Now that he's fully informed, Yusuke is all on fire to help Shota again, which Botan encourages as precisely what they're here FOR. To put a stop to stuff that's bad for the victim, even if the victim themself thinks it's fine, or even nice. Gee, I wonder if this attitude should be applied to other real life issues that disproportionately affect children. I feel like there are quite a few, actually.

With Botan's fresh encouragement to go forth and help, Yusuke fazes through the window into the room where Shota and his new "friend" are playing, and immediately tells Shota he should get back in his body post haste. Shota, clearly not recognizing him from their last encounter (that false mustache Yusuke wore did a lot of heavy-lifting, didn't it?), asks Yusuke who he might be, and the little girl snaps at him to go away, asserting they're just having fun. Yusuke claps back at her that Shota doesn't belong here - he's perishable goods. Not sure I'm stoked about this metaphor painting him as a product rather than a person, but fair enough.

Bold of you to assume that this matters AT ALL to someone like Yusuke. He practically made being mean and hated his JOB in life. 

Predictably, this rhetoric breezes right past Yusuke, who invites her to hate him all she wants, grabbing Shota's hand to drag him back to his body. Shota yanks his wrist out of Yusuke's grip, asserting he's staying with Sayaka (a NAME, this early on?? Oh happy day!), citing the fact that she has no one else to play with as the reason. Yusuke starts to say Shota's name, but Shota cuts him off to explain that Sayaka has told him she's always been alone, and she just wants a friend. He's already determined for that to be him.

Yusuke lays a hand on Shota's shoulder, trying to reason to him that, while it's great that he's Sayaka's friend, his body can't really take this sustained separation from his little soul. Meanwhile, Sayaka's hands crackle behind Yusuke's back, and he glances into his periphery as Sayaka tells him yet again to leave them alone and go away, with far more force of tone AND energy from her extended hand.

He didn't really think it would be THAT easy, did he?

After a couple of transition panels that are not much more than overlapping shapes and darkness, Yusuke grunts and opens his eyes to broad daylight. Botan welcomes him back again, because apparently he's been out for A COUPLE OF DAYS. Damn, that little brat packs quite a punch, doesn't she? Yusuke is incensed that the little girl totally OWNED him, but I'm more incredulous over the claim that ghosts can be unconscious. Weird.

Shuddering in his shame, Yusuke moans that he's never lost a fight before, even when he's been caught off guard, and this was just a little girl. Yeah, a little girl with crazy laser powers. Botan reminds him that his loss here isn't the issue, and explains that the power of ghosts lies in their feelings rather than their size, and their emotions are the source of their strength - after all, you can't have a physical advantage over someone without a physical body. 

Botan draws Yusuke's attention back to their REAL problem, which is Shota, who is currently on his way out of the house when his mom calls to him and asks if he's alright, since he's looking a bit thin. No doubt his own mother would know how much she's been feeding him, so the problem can't be on her end. Shota assures her that he's fine, but he trembles dangerously on his feet, and his mother shouts his name again. She insists he IS sick, and that she has to check him for a fever, asking if he hurts anywhere and ignoring his repetition that he's fine. Botan says it's his new confidence that's part of what's blinding to his growing bodily weakness, adding that she doubts he remembers his nightly play dates, so he's utterly in the dark about what's going on. She worries that nothing will stop Sayaka from dragging Shota into the spirit world at this point. 

Yusuke asks if Sayaka's feelings are REALLY that strong. I don't know, why don't you consult the lack of memory you have over the last couple of days when she blasted your sorry ass into oblivion? 

Botan says that her parents didn't know how to cope with their terminally ill daughter, so they were hardly ever home, over an image of little Sayaka asking a dumpy housekeeper snacking and laughing at a TV show where mommy and daddy were. The housekeeper answers carelessly that they told her they were working late. In the next panel, Sayaka is watching a few kids playing in the street and mutters that they're lucky. She's lying in bed crying in another panel, wishing she could run away and play with friends too. Botan and Yusuke float there in speechless discomfort for a moment, and I wonder if this is playing out for them like a movie or something. 

The end of the story here is predictable - Sayaka died and stayed by that window, wishing for what she never had in life, which is exactly where Shota spotted her. Sweatdropping profusely, Yusuke mumbles that psychic or not, Shota's a sensitive kid, which is how that girl hooked him and is now trying to drag him into heaven. But Botan corrects him, because the danger is so much more dire than just that: apparently, Sayaka's longing for company has intensified to resentment, and she's downright hazardous at this point. If she drags someone else down with her like this, trying to enter heaven for either of them would be impossible, and they'll instead be lost in a realm of darkness, a purgatory where light never enters. Botan shares the opinion that it's probably WORSE than Hell, and the illustration of this eventuality shows the two kids floating helplessly in black, so I can believe it. 

So, with this information, Yusuke is more determined than ever to stop the worst-case-scenario at all costs. But Botan is looking serious when she reminds him that he's experienced the power spawned by her loneliness, and he could be pulled in with them if he makes even ONE wrong move. She asks how he could honestly begin to stop Sayaka at THIS point. Damn, Botan, I didn't peg you for someone who would just kind of give up on your JOB when the stakes are this high, but that sure is the vibe you're putting out, girl!

After a pause, Yusuke grins and reminds her in turn of how she said his loss "isn't the issue". He said he would take care of Shota, and that's precisely what Yusuke intends to do. Botan seems genuinely shocked that Yusuke is so devoted to this cause, but she really shouldn't be right now. She's known since the beginning that this kid is a risk-taker at his CORE. Yusuke declares that he and Sayaka will settle this thing tonight. 

As Shota and Sayaka skip around in his spirit-flight astral-projection dreams, she asks him for a favor. But before we get to what THAT might be, we get one of those character profile panels for Botan. Her birthday, age, and blood type are all listed as unknown, but her hobby is "floating around in the sky". Thanks, panel, that information definitely needed to be reiterated, lol.

Back to the plot. Sayaka explains to Shota that she has to go someplace far away soon, and she asks if he'll come with her when she does. Shota repeats the phrase "far away" in question, so Sayaka flat-out tells him that it's Heaven she's talking about. She says she's afraid to go by herself, but she won't be scared anymore if he's with her. Shota is understandably... confused and a little frightened.

It just hit him that he might have been in bad company, huh?

Sayaka grabs his wrist to try to get him to come along with her, but he protests that he's still alive. Everybody's always trying to yank this kid places, I swear. Sayaka argues that they're going to HEAVEN, though, and it's going to be better than any place he could possibly be on Earth, pulling him up and nearer her scary portal, and promising it'll be GREAT. GREATly distressing, I'll warrant. 

Someone else calls for Sayaka to wait, causing her to pause in her murder plans. Botan and Yusuke have arrived, the former's hair flying as she informs Sayaka seriously that the kids can't go to Heaven without a proper guide. Yusuke affirms this, and calls for her to let go of Shota, while Botan tries to explain that Sayaka will only get lost forever (probably) if she tries to get to Heaven right now. Sayaka merely responds with a cold stare and expresses her determination to stop the mean boy trying to stop HER without holding back. 

Feeling a concerning background hum, Botan turns to Yusuke and warns him that Sayaka MEANS it. Though he's sweating, he insists that he means it too, and he can't back down now because no matter what she throws at him, this is about Shota's soul. Meanwhile, it seems like Sayaka is gearing up for another big laser - her nightgown is whipping around her legs, and then she suddenly appears right in front of Yusuke, much to his shock. Throwing back her glowing hand, she promises to use it to blast him to the end of the universe. 

Botan yells Yusuke's name, Shota begs Sayaka to stop, but...

Well, this is awkward.

Botan holds up a finger in revelation, declaring that what must have happened was all these nights of playing with Shota eased Sayaka's loneliness and malice. Sayaka gapes in impotent astonishment, and a PROFUSELY sweating Yusuke sighs with relief through a dumb grin that there won't be a blast to the end of the universe after all. 

There's a commotion as Yusuke yells at Sayaka not to be stubborn and demands she hand Shota over, but she's thrown her arms around Shota's neck and refused. She insists on bringing Shota to heaven with her, not going without him and not letting him go. With a surge of boldness in the wake of Sayaka's failure to laser him, he declares she's being a very naughty girl. He asks if she knows what happens to kids who misbehave like this, and she shrieks in protest.

Uhhhhhhhhh...

I should be reading THIS over and over instead of Sherlock Holmes, FFS.

While Shota looks on with his hands over his mouth and eyes wide in awkward horror, Botan lets out some uncomfortable laughter over the swatting sounds, apologizing for how harsh Yusuke is all the time. Harsh and weird, for sure.

Sayaka starts bawling that she's sorry, citing her crippling loneliness for her behavior. Fists pressed over her eyes to stem the flood of tears (and no longer slung over Yusuke's knee, thank GOODNESS), she cries that no one ever cared enough to stay with her, even when she was in pain and wanted company. With a sympathetic look, Shota trots back over to her, telling her not to cry. He says he can't go with her yet, but promises that when he DOES go, they'll be friends forever. That's a nice thought for half a second, until you realize that if he dies seventy or eighty years hence, it's going to be a real awkward friendship. 

Oh well, it's already pretty awkward. 

Sayaka asks if he's serious, and he says he promises, holding out a pinky to seal the deal. Yusuke seems to be working through some of the implications of this as well, and asks Botan if Shota is even going to REMEMBER his promise when he wakes up. Botan laughs again, just as uncomfortably as before, and says she'll remind him when the time comes. Great. That'll be fun. Botan then bends down to assure Sayaka that time passes very quickly in Heaven.

Yusuke ruffles her hair a little and asks if she'd like to play a bit with him before she goes to Heaven herself, since HE'S already something of a ghost himself. Kind of. He sweeps her up onto his shoulders, reiterating the offer to hang out with her and have fun until she's comfortable heading off to where she needs to be. Sayaka seems to be taken aback by this suggestion, as Botan starts yelling at Yusuke that Sayaka was all ready to go before this, and Yusuke asks what the hurry is, asserting that Heaven can wait. He says that though he doesn't know what it's like, he thinks Heaven might lack something if you can't bring any happy memories with you, such as playing with friends. Yusuke repeats that he is totally cool with giving her more of what she was getting with Shota, presumably so Shota can get some actual rest. 

Botan relents when Yusuke asserts that he's sure, and then Sayaka starts weeping again. Yusuke asks her what's wrong now, because he didn't think he spanked her SO hard that she should be tender "back there" still. Ugh, maybe don't draw more attention to that, okay comic?

These two exactly opposite things make her happier than she's ever been. 

Cut to someone calling Shota's name. He sits up in bed, looking quizzical, his worried mother thanking goodness that he's awake. She says she was really worried, because he was moaning in his sleep before becoming oddly still and quiet. I would think the latter part is rather normal for sleep, but then again, he has been looking pretty ill lately, so I can't blame Mom for being extra anxious about it. 

Shota tells her that he was having a dream that he can't QUITE recall, the vague outline of Sayaka in her frilly nightgown in his mind as he describes how the dream was kinda scary, but also fun, and a little sad. Yeah, I've had those before. Oh, shit, I hope I didn't make a promise to be best friends with a ghost after I eventually kick the bucket, lol!

We get a transition panel to Shota later walking along the street, past the house where he saw Sayaka before. He's noticed that she hasn't shown up lately, and wonders if she moved away or something. Guess he's assuming his friends were goofing with him when they told him that the house was empty before. Someone calls to Shota behind him, a girl with short, fair hair, asking him what he was looking at. He gives her a wide, nervous grin and stutters to the girl, whom he calls Shiori, that he was looking at nothing, nothing at all! She suggests they hurry to school, and he follows her dutifully, as Yusuke watches from up high. Yusuke scoffs that kids are so fickle, before he gives us a little update on Sayaka.

That'll learn ya to offer kindness to children! Wait...

So, what did I think of this chapter overall? Just to get it out of the way, I found that spanking scene pretty uncomfortable, but that's mostly my own over-sensitive alarm system working on overdrive. I have had to be CAREFUL in the past engaging with manga and anime involving little girl children interacting with boys and men many years their senior, and it's reflex by now to cringe at scenes that might have an almost fetishistic interpretation. I don't believe that was the intention of this scene, but my skin crawled regardless, which just goes to show how thoroughly this industry has broken me, lol!

Is there something in the Japanese zeitgeist that ascribes particular tendencies toward violence to small girl ghosts? I feel like there are a lot of stories out there in which a young girl dies and is predisposed to strong negative emotion, especially malice. In this one, Sayaka is fairly easily cured of her negative bent, but in a lot of them, the murderous rage is so strong as to have a pretty large body count. If a reader has any more information on this, I'm very curious, because I've noticed a pattern and it's something of a mystery to me. 

Sayaka seems fairly typical in this regard - a sad, lonely death, followed by a grasp at bringing others with her into her isolated atmosphere of anger and despair. As I said, Sayaka was at least able to be snapped out of it though, in the form of being treated like a normal child. The implication here is that she wasn't just lonely in the sense that she wanted the company of and to play with other children of her own age, but also in the sense that she had no elder presence in her life. Her parents being MIA during her extended hospice robbed her of a sense of protection, guidance, and general comfort. It's only when Yusuke shows up to discipline her, challenge her intentions to harm another, that her attitude can truly turn around. 

It's also interesting that immediately after the discipline, Yusuke makes the immediate effort to show her care and attention, offering her an empathetic solution to her continuing isolation. Botan is annoyed at this, but I think Yusuke has a point here - even though Sayaka's active negativity is curbed, she could still do with a lot more attention to her emotional needs before she's TRULY ready to go off to Heaven by herself. She was so starved for it in her life that it seems unlikely that she would be satisfied with just a few days with Shota, no matter how sensitive to her he is. 

Though it DOES appear that Yusuke is already kind of fed up with his self-appointed role of emotional-support-spirit. 

Monday, August 12, 2024

Inuyasha Manga: 309 Choice

I'm personally feeling a little better about my choices nowadays. For a while there, it looked like I would have to hold my nose and take a bite of a shit-sandwich to avoid my home being flooded with toxic waste again, but now I'm a little more optimistic. Sure, the shit-sandwich has been swapped out for a questionable Kraft mac n' cheese, but at least it seems edible. I'm even kind of looking forward to it, in a weird way. There's a lot to like about it, despite its shortcomings, and the youth is really enthused, so you can't go wrong with that. I would be a little more happy if the mac n' cheese weren't a fucking COP, but if I've learned anything in this life, it's that you should count you're blessings when you're not forced to eat a shit-sandwich.

Totes not talking about anything in particular, by the way...

She's looking real damp right now. I hope her glaze isn't cracked.

The child shikigami reiterate the event immediately following the collapse of Mt. Hakurei, when Kikyou's chest was pierced by Naraku's poisonous tentacles, and she was shoved off the cliff into a river of miasma. According to them, it was specifically BECAUSE her body is made from holy bones and burial soil that it didn't dissolve in the miasma, but the miasma permeated her body through the wounds inflicted by Naraku's tentacles, and it continues to decay as her wounds remain open. An illustration of her in the pool, but with miasma pouring from a deep crack in her chest and shoulder, is shown, though that seems to be giving a visual element to something that was invisible in the previous panels. 

Dispassionately, the shikigami tell Kagome that the only one who can save Kikyou is her.

This is even weirder when you remember that they share a soul, essentially.

Kagome thinks she understands now why the shikigami children asked her to choose, and so she haltingly asks how she should go about saving Kikyou. Oddly, the kiddos are speechless for a moment, one of them asking for confirmation that this means Kagome is agreeing to save Kikyou. Kagome stutters that this should be obvious - if it's the case that only she can save Kikyou, she's ready to do it. The shikigami children say that Kagome's touch alone is enough to purify the miasma, so Kagome takes off her backpack to set it aside with an affirmation, and lowers her legs into the pool. She's immediately struck by how PAINFUL the water is. That... can't be good.

The second thing she notices is that on closer inspection, she can see miasma leaking out from under Kikyou's collar. As she moves to touch the place where it's seeping into the surrounding water, Kagome is pitched into the water with Kikyou. 

This pool seems a lot deeper than it did a moment ago. And that's not all - Kagome looks around and finds that a dark, oily substance has saturated the water around them, and Kagome thinks this might be miasma dissolved in the pool. This is exactly the reason why pools are chlorinated these days. Kagome is in a little disbelief that all of this could have come from Kikyou's body. Looking back at Kikyou and seeing the trickle of miasma still leaking out from under her collar, Kagome mentally apologizes to her before pushing aside the cloth to get a better look at the damage. 

You think the pity is why Kikyou might have been a little hesitant to ask for help directly?

They appear to be sinking even further into what is starting to strike me as a hammer-space of a pool, because it's completely dark in the next panel. It's this darkness that appears to allow Kagome to see the sparkle of something light above them and look up, reaching out a hand in confusion for an advancing cloud of something descending through the water toward her. She catches it in her hand, and before she can guess what it is for herself, the shikigami on the edge of the pool explain that this is Kikyou's burial soil, and Kagome's hand has at this moment purified it. Must have been fairly mica-rich soil in order to be sparkling that way before it touched Kagome, then...

Kagome has been holding her breath for an AWFULLY long time, hasn't she??

Anyway, the Shikigami, somehow communicating perfectly clearly through the water at Kagome, instruct her to press the purified soil into the wound in Kikyou's chest. Kagome affirms her understanding of this command and proceeds to push the clump of soil in her hand into Kikyou's cracked flesh. It's not as easy as it sounds.

Encountering a little resistance there.

Kagome notes that the miasma in Kikyou's body is being pushed out by the burial soil she's cramming in the wound, but she squeezes her eyes shut, experiencing some more pain herself. She opens her eyes again to find, to her surprise somehow, that the wound she was filling with soil has almost closed up as the miasma continues to be forced out of Kikyou's unconscious form. This visible result of her efforts inspires Kagome to push all the harder, encouraging herself to go for it, until there is no more poison or wound to heal. 

With the knowledge that the water is cleaned and the miasma purified, Kagome thanks goodness before literally PASSING OUT in the pool, still underwater. Luckily for her, this is the moment Kikyou opens HER eyes, and she doesn't have the burden of lungs in this situation. 

Cut to a view of treetops and sky from the ground, and Kagomer blearily opening her eyes, groaning. She's lying supine in the dirt, a short distance from her backpack, dazed. She recovers her wits enough to prop herself on her elbows and look around, to see Kikyou standing with her back turned, between her little shikigami. Kagome calls out to her, and she looks over her shoulder.

Lol, wut?

Kagome has a similar reaction to the question, asking hesitantly if KIKYOU wasn't the one who lead her here. She's giving her double the benefit of the doubt here, assuming that Kikyou somehow thinks she just stumbled across her and has some unfathomable motivations for curing her. Kikyou admits indirectly that she DID indeed summon Kagome, but says that Kagome should have made a choice herself whether to help her or not. I wouldn't call that a choice so much as a moral test... In lieu of a response from Kagome, Kikyou says she won't thank Kagome, since it was entirely her own choice.

Understandably, this increases Kagome's confusion, and adds to it a hefty amount of indignity. Fuming and already done with this shit, Kagome thinks that Kikyou has already regained her characteristic "directness". Yeah, she's got LOADS of direct ways to make you feel like garbage, clearly.

Kikyou announces that Inuyasha will be arriving soon, looking for Kagome, then starts walking off to yet another confused noise from Kagome. Kagome regains her tongue again to demand to know where Kikyou is headed, asking if she's not going to meet with Inuyasha. Kikyou says that she's going to stay in hiding for just a bit longer, given she has to build back up her power. Odd that this is a requirement before meeting with Inuyasha, isn't it? All Kagome can think is that Inuyasha wants to meet with Kikyou regardless, and how annoying that is. 

Meanwhile, as she and her shikigami amble off, Kikyou muses on how there was no doubt at all in Kagome's heart, knowing that because the crack in her body would not have been mended if doubt had been present. 

Can Kikyou produce her own body heat? Or is she perpetually cold, being ceramic in composition?

So, what did I think of this chapter overall? It's really a wonder Kagome didn't drown being under water as long as she was, and nasty toxic water to boot. But I'm willing to chalk that up to magic, given that the pool seemed to vary in depth - it rather struck me as more of a different dimension that slowed the worsening of Kikyou's condition. It looked as though it kept her in a sort of stasis and immobile so she wasn't overtaxing her injured body.

Which again just makes me conscious of the total lack of discussion on HOW MUCH power these stunts require. If the twin shikigami are relatively low-energy magics, which Joseph pointed out on the previous chapter's recap and review (go and check out that short discussion in the comments if you've got a moment), creating a stasis pool for oneself HAS to be a bit more complex. Kikyou expresses the need to build up her power again at the end of the chapter, so perhaps she burned through her reserves fairly quickly in order to sustain herself until help arrived, but I'm not entirely sure how viable that hypothesis is. We just don't have a good idea how much power anything Kikyou does takes. 

Speaking of the help Kikyou was waiting for, way to bite the hand that feeds you, girl! Kikyou's mild hostility is frustrating here, because she could have asked a much more relevant question about what led Kagome to be so sure of helping her, considering her thoughts on the last page. She could have asked instead about why Kagome had no doubt. As we have discussed on the blog before, the current entity that we call "Kikyou" is actually the collection of negative and hateful feelings she had for Inuyasha at the moment of her death. She tries to get beyond those, but her development in that regard is limited, given that time does not have an effect on her, either physically or mentally. To some extent, it's expected that she would have a hard time understanding Kagome's sense of compassion and empathy for her, because she just... DOESN'T feel those things and CAN'T.

But focusing on this "choice" aspect doesn't give that impression. Kikyou refusing to thank Kagome because of her "choice" to help just makes Kikyou seem petulant and aggrieved rather than genuinely perplexed about the motivations behind her rescue. It makes the whole thing little more than a play on this "love triangle" angle that seems to play well with the audience rather than the more nuanced and interesting conversation that COULD be had between these characters about their experiences or motivations. 

At least Kikyou bowing out before Inuyasha arrives makes a bit of sense to me. Again, Kikyou's emotions regarding Inuyasha are very negative, though she has awareness that Naraku is really to blame for her death. Her instinct WOULD be to hide away and grow her power before confronting someone that she will always, to some degree, be suspicious of. She's still trying to play that long game, even if she necessarily views an ally as an enemy in a lot of respects.

It's just a shame that Kagome has to be left standing there feeling like shit on all sides at the end of this.