Friday, September 20, 2024

YuYu Hakusho Manga: 011 The Fractured Friendship

Bummer, it's no fun when that happens. I've had a few friends that have broken with me for various reasons over the course of my life, sometimes my fault, and no matter what, it took some time to get over. People often expound upon the pain of a romantic breakup, but you don't hear much about how shitty it is to have a friend who shuns or pushes you away. Odd, considering how much more of a common occurrence it must be, given how many more friends most of us have as compared to lovers, especially at a time. Either people don't think those relationships are nearly as painful to end, or they are strangely more careful not to overtly sever them.

Might be an interesting subject for sociological/anthropological study...

Yeah, man, it was YOUR suggestion that Sayaka stick with you!

Yusuke seems cowed, resolving to stop complaining (for now), while Sayaka leans over to one side on his shoulders to look down below. Suddenly serious, Sayaka offers the ominous prediction that someone she's seeing is going to be killed. Yusuke asks her who it is, and she bids him to look where she's pointing, at a girl with fair shoulder-length hair in a puffy coat, holding a bag as she stares at a small black book in her other hand. Sayaka says she senses that someone is going to murder her. With how absorbed she is in that book, I wouldn't be surprised if she pulls a little Masaru and walks in front of a truck. 

The title page is a bit spooky, though, with the puffy-jacket girl looking distressed and defensive, one hand raised, Yusuke and Botan being swept back in what looks like a great wind, and a single large eye surveying the whole scene from the sky. It seems very concerning. 

Puffy-Jacket walks to an intersection, still reading her book, and waits for a the traffic to pass and the crosswalk figure to turn green before starting to cross. Her attention is minimal, so it's a REALLY good thing when a voice from behind her calls her Eri (should I be stoked about the names anymore? I feel like I still am) and yells at her to look out.

Holy shit, guys, that thing about her getting hit by a truck was a JOKE. 

Shrieking, Eri lurches back toward the sidewalk as the truck swerves to avoid her, a voice coming from it to tell her to watch it, calling her an idiot. She's on the pavement, a hand to her hammering chest, breathing hard, when another girl runs up to her and asks if she's alright. She also asks why Eri would try to cross the street when the light was still red. Eri looks up at the street pole on which the walk lights are mounted, and is alarmed to find that it is, indeed, still RED, and only now turns green. She is flabbergasted, willing to swear that she saw it turn green before. To her credit, we the readers also saw the change from shaded to light of the walk sign, so she wasn't completely distracted. Just mostly.

Her friend beckons her to come along, since the light is green now, suggesting that Eri is getting woozy from how hard she's studying. The friend tells her that she should ease up on it a bit, because there's no sense in making herself sick or getting herself run over. Besides, without Eri around, there's a contest that would be a whole lot less interesting. The friend marvels at the fact that she and Eri have known each other forever, but they've never competed for the same prize before. Eri agrees with all of this, the next couple of panels showing the two girls in pictures together since they were small children.

The friend, Katsumi, drew shy little Eri out of her shell since they were little, being the outgoing and fearless one. They were opposites in just about every way, but they got along well, never arguing or fighting. Until, that is, their final year of middle school, when both of them were approached to try for a scholarship to a prestigious high school. Only the first letter of the schools name is revealed, but Eri describes it as a really exclusive private prep school, that only this year started offering a scholarship to ONE student at her school. Katsumi and herself are the best candidates for the exclusive spot. 

Eri is not comfortable with the idea of competing with Katsumi, and it really rather depresses her. To ADD to her stress, there have been a few weird things happening to her lately, noises that don't seem to come from anywhere, the feeling of being watched... While she's at home, studying yet again against Katsumi's advice, she especially gets that distinct feeling of being observed. She pauses now as she holds a book open in one hand and a pencil in the other, the sudden concerning vibe coming on her like a bolt of lightning. A dreadful feeling that she does not welcome in the midst of her attempts to concentrate. 

Ugh, thanks, I HATE it...

Though Eri is very much scared by the prospect, she sets down her pencil to go check if she's actually alone, something she just HAS to do for her peace of mind. First she turns, sweating, to look over her shoulder at her door, heart pounding. From her pile of stuffed animals to the little nick knacks on the shelves, everything looks still and quiet, but she gulps. Cut to her stonginged foot on tip-toe under the creaking desk chair, as she thinks that there's no one here, and why would there be anyway? 

Another creak from her chair, and she determines that her imagination is just on overdrive. Eri faces forward again, knocking on the side of her head with her fist and thinking that Katsumi is right - she's studying WAY too hard. She returns to the book lying open on the desk in front of her, and all the while, there is a small standing mirror on the desk too that manages to be in each of these shots. In the last panel, another creak appears to come from IT.

I would probably visit a doctor if I passed out after an incident like this, just to rule out a medical issue, but that doesn't appear to be Miss Eri's style. She's in the faculty offices instead, being asked what's wrong, because she hasn't been putting a lot of heart into her classes lately, apparently. A man with a sagging puffy face and a pendulous lip reminds her that the upcoming exams will be key to selecting the scholarship spot she's been pursuing, and she's slightly in the lead at the moment. The guy says that, in a manner of speaking, his money is on Eri, and she needs to give her ALL in these exams. I guess... for HIS benefit?

He doesn't even allow her to respond at all before he starts pointing and demanding she forget all her presumed discomfort for competing with her friend or reconsideration of her desire to go to this private school at all. Unless it's a recommendation for the private school, this teacher refuses to give her ANY recommendation whatsoever, so he says she had better beat Katsumi in Class B. His sole consideration in this instance that his reputation will be made if one of HIS pupils is accepted into the exclusive school, a gross laugh escaping him. Eri has said literally NOTHING in this interview.

Man, is there only ONE good teacher in this entire fucking story? 

Later, as Eri is sitting in class, watching another teacher writing on the blackboard with his back turned to her, she is exhausted by how awful it's been, competing with Katsumi and all these weird incidents. She doesn't mention the pressure she's getting from what I assume is her guidance counselor? Anyway, as she sighs and leans her weary head on her fist, a strange shimmering cloud seems to collect next to her. 

That guy in the other desk ALMOST looks like he can see this, lol.

As the spectral student stares down at Eri the way he stared at her in her mirror, Yusuke appears behind him. He perceives Yusuke's appearance, but can't do any more than make a confused noise before Yusuke lands a punch in the back of the other ghost's head. The other ghost yells out in pain, rubbing the back of his head, and demanding to know what THAT was for. It's what you get, when you're creeping around. 

Yusuke rejects the innocent act, and asks in turn why this ghost is lurking around harassing this girl, pointing an accusing finger. The kid waves a hand and denies it's anything like how it looks, insisting he had no choice and that he was summoned. This rightly prompts a couple of questions about who it was that summoned him and how, and he answers that it was another girl possessing a piece of paper with a weird sigil spell drawn on it. He speculates that it's some sort of curse powered by the malice of Eri's rival.

Gee, I wonder who it could be... (/s)

The other ghost points at himself with his thumb, explaining that he was a student here about five years prior, but there was a lot of pressure, and he took his own life, which he regrets greatly now. Yusuke is still feeling accusatory, and so follows up this confession with a suggestion that this guy is still angry and wants to drag someone else down with him. The other ghost denies this vociferously, though he admits he was angry at FIRST, right after his death. He haunted some students, pulled some ghostly pranks, but he insists that those days are behind him BECAUSE of Eri.

He gushes about what a nice, gentle person she is, with such a warm smile that makes him forget a little more of his anger and heals his heart a little more every time he sees it. Yusuke's attitude switches tracks on a DIME, and is now sporting a teasing expression as he instead suggests a little cross-hedge romance. But the other ghost says it's not exactly like THAT either. He says her goodness made him ashamed of the anger he was harboring and redeemed his soul. OR, she inspired you to do that work yourself. Don't sell yourself short, guy.

Over an image of Eri with a shadow extending evil-looking tendrils over her shoulders, the other ghost says his only desire now is to warn her of the danger she's in. He reveals that the one who unleashed that danger is the very person Eri thinks is her best friend. This causes Yusuke to gape in astonishment, but readers can't be TOO surprised with all the info we've been getting. 

Nah, not a chance. (double /s)

Turns out, Katsumi isn't alone in the bathroom, go figure. She hears outside her stall someone expressing alarm that Eri saw a ghost, while Eri herself hisses that she should keep her voice down. Eri does confirm that she does indeed think she must have seen a ghost, and is now afraid to study by herself at night. After another panel of Eri walking along with her nose in a book again, another filler panel without the biographical info no doubt, the other girl asks why Eri doesn't tell Katsumi, since it seems that Katsumi could probably even put a GHOST in its place. Eri refuses, because while she acknowledges that Katsumi is tough, her friend takes charms and spirits and stuff like that VERY seriously, and it would probably get her real worked up, a distraction she doesn't need right now. The other girl points out that Eri doesn't need the distraction herself right now, but Eri wags a finger at her and asserts that whatever is going on at the moment is HER problem, not Katsumi's. In the end Eri wants Katsumi to be able to take her BEST shot at those exams, and Eri expresses her belief that Katsumi probably wants the same for her. How ELSE are friends supposed to compete, right?

In her stall, Katsumi's hand, clutching her sigil-curse, drops. Gee, kid, I bet you feel like a real asshole right now, huh?

If the pressure for academic achievement is driving your students to suicide and cursing others, maybe there's something SUPER wrong with your school.

Katsumi puts the blame more on Eri's slightly better grades putting enormous pressure on her, rather than the adult people who made her feel like she had to compete, but I guess it's not a sticking-point of a distinction. She recalls coming across an old book of charms in the library - is this the school library, or more a city/county affair? Because I don't remember my OWN school library carrying spell books. Granted, I wasn't looking for them, but still...

Anyhow, despite telling herself she wasn't going to use it, and that it wouldn't work anyway, Katsumi found herself looking for a curse to put on a rival in the book. Apparently, she couldn't resist somehow, and I'm not sure if I should interpret that as a weakness of character or a literal magical influence from touching the text. Either way, as Katsumi stands next to an open window, she rips up the paper with the sigil drawn on it, letting the pieces flutter out onto the wind, mentally projecting her apologies to Eri. I guess littering isn't quite as egregious a crime as cursing your classmate and friend. 

But it's still a douche-move, Katsumi.

The other ghost kid and Yusuke watch this from a distance, the former expressing relief that Katsumi ripped up the curse. Botan looks on him approvingly as he acknowledges that she realized her mistake before it was too late, unlike him, and is sure that Eri will be safe now. Botan says that it's easy for ANYONE to lash out because of life's demands and temptations - Katsumi struck at Eri, and he struck at his own body - and she suggests that he apologize to his victim as well. While the boy fades in the bright sunlight of the day, he smiles silently for a moment, and then promises to do just that. He disappears in a flash, wishing Yusuke, Sayaka, and Botan goodbye. 

All's well that ends well, except... this isn't the end of the chapter.

Katsumi is walking away from the window, assuming Eri has probably headed home by now, and resolving to tell her all about this mess tomorrow and ask for forgiveness, when a voice implores her not to consider the matter closed so fast. The voice says Eri is already theirs, sinister giggling seeming to break out all around Katsumi. She looks up and around, asking who this voice belongs to, but the only answer she gets is a painful throb from her wrist. Wincing, she holds her arm up to look at it, wondering what the hell this is. She is horrified to find that, just below the cuff of her sleeve, the sigil she just ripped up is BURNED onto her wrist. Try ripping THAT up, girlie-pop!

Meanwhile, Eri is indeed on her way home, and I'm not sure if this is a different route or what, but she's at a train crossing instead of a road. No chance of the vehicle missing or veering out of the way THIS time. Suddenly, Eri's arm jerks up and out, like someone invisible is tugging her toward the train tracks beyond the bar blocking the crossing as the train comes. She resists, panicking as she wonders what's going on. 

SOMEONE is determined to carry out this curse, it seems. 

So, what did I think of this chapter overall? What a story to dig into during spooky season! I like Eri and Katsumi, whose struggles seem very believable in an intense environment of academic competition. Even in the United States, with its anti-intellectual culture, puts a lot of pressure on its students to do well in school to prop up the whole of their adult future. I can't even IMAGINE the level of stress produced by a culture that actually VALUES an education. From what I hear, students over there routinely go to cram schools and are pitted against each other in these types of scholarships, and it no doubt has/still does rip apart friendships. Even if the competition manages to stay friendly, one friend going to a different, more exclusive school is BOUND to put a strain on the relationship, because the distance in social class as well as physical space is going to test ANY kind of relationship. 

It really does seem probable that if Katsumi was despairing of her chances, and thought that perhaps her friendship with Eri was already thrown into turmoil by the scholarship race anyway, it would occur to her to try and give herself an edge by any means possible. Giving her a predisposition to taking the supernatural seriously is a great way to make the move cut both ways, though - the trait allowed her to try out the curse in the first place, and then made her feel sufficiently shitty about how badly she must have freaked out Eri, despite hearing Eri brush it off in the bathroom. I'm impressed with the writing here, because Katsumi isn't just being malicious and cut-throat, but is acting on a host of conflicting emotional bases that are all vying for resolution. 

Which makes it all the scarier, because even though she chooses her friend over the competition and resolves to break the curse and apologize for the harm she's done, she finds she CAN'T just stop what she's begun. The ghost/curse are just a device to deliver the TRUE terror here - that there are some wrongs you can't take back. Some harms you can't repair. It's the real, honest horror that is constantly waiting for adults around every corner, which is why the character of my nightmares has drastically changed over the years. What were ghosts and monsters and shadow people in my childhood are mostly me doing horrible shit that can't be undone now.

Oh, and losing my teeth. Seems to be a pretty common one now too.

Also, I think that the tragic story of the ghost student is very moving, but I don't know if I can trust it. There's something about his story that is a little hollow, with his very cavalier way of telling it, especially since nothing we saw him do speaks to him trying to warn her.  And I'm suspicious that the incident of the curse burning onto Katsumi's wrist and Eri getting pulled toward the oncoming train happen almost immediately after he disappears. I could be off base here, but there's something a little fishy about it. 

Maybe I've just seen too many horror films where there's a kind of double-twist in that vein, I don't know. We'll see.

Sunday, September 8, 2024

Inuyasha Manga: 310 Irritated Heart

I'm going out of my way to avoid that as much as I can this month. In another example of the increasingly militant attitudes of fandom, someone really got under my skin in a discussion over a different interpretation of a shared interest the other day, and there was some falling out there. Talk about heart irritation. So, I'm skirting subjects that tend to give me a bit of discomfort for the time being, and being somewhat careful about what discussions I engage in on the internet. In the recent past, I've been particularly distressed in fandom spaces online, so I'm avoiding those like the plague - this one being the exception, of course. And in my personal relationships, I'm being extra careful to communicate clearly. 

Any heartbreak that comes my way in the moment will have to seek ME out, and I'm not making it easy.

What a difference pausing to fight some monsters for a second will make.

He's of course addressing Miroku, Sango, and Shippou among the corpses of their fallen youkai enemies, the latter of which tells Inuyasha that Kagome was following the Shinidamachuu she saw through the trees. Just more evidence of Kikyou's presence on the little mountain, which Inuyasha acknowledges with some continued shock.

Meanwhile, Kagome is sitting on the bank of the pool, her back to it, with her chin propped in her hands, sighing in a moping funk. She recalls the way Kikyou looked over her shoulder and refused to thank her for her choice, and asks herself what's up with Kikyou's attitude. It's a good fucking question, though I don't agree that one of the reasons on the list is because it makes Kagome look like an idiot for saving Kikyou, as she asserts. Thinking on the shikigami telling her to choose to save Kikyou or not, she wonders why it seemed like they were testing her. She reluctantly speculates that it could be because of Inuyasha, and how Kikyou is "in the way" of her relationship with him. Kagome slumps at the supposition that they thought she WOULDN'T save Kikyou, because she can't think of any other reason they would act that way. She feels mocked in their assumption that she would be such a horrible person.

As she mulls all this over in her indignation, a bare foot steps into frame, and Kagome only seems to at that moment realize that someone was approaching. 

Oh, she's not even greeting him. The mood must be DARK.

While Sango and Miroku hurry forward to ask Kagome if she's okay, Inuyasha is looking around and it's clear even without the thought bubble on Kikyou what's on his mind. Despite the overt concern of her other friends, Kagome deflates, thinking he didn't come to find her at all. Kagome asks irritably what Inuyasha is glancing around restlessly for, and looks over at her in guilty shock. She tells him that Kikyou is long gone, asking if he's going after her. 

After a moment of being taken aback by Kagome's blunt reference to his heart on his sleeve, he sweatdrops as he asks if Kikyou was here in surprise. As if he wouldn't be able to smell her??? Kagome tosses her head and repeats that Kikyou is long gone, even after she told her that she could meet up with and talk to him.

I mean, he doesn't exactly LOOK happy, although that sigh suggests that he's at least RELIEVED. 

While Sango looks on silently, perhaps not trusting herself to speak right now, Miroku asks Inuyasha what they should do. Inuyasha turns to make a noise of confusion at Miroku, then twists to look back at Kagome still sitting and looking dejected. After a moment of cautious silence, he asks if anything HAPPENED between her and Kikyou. Kagome keeps her eyes and head diverted from meeting his gaze, thinking on what Kikyou said before she left about how Inuyasha will be arriving soon for Kagome herself. Kagome is consumed with the certainty that Kikyou is absolutely wrong, that Inuyasha has been thinking of nothing BUT Kikyou since they started hearing the Hijiri-sama rumors. She recalls how hard she was working to save Kikyou in the pool, and it's only now that she's feeling a bit like a fool. 

Inuyasha crouches in front of the sullen Kagome, getting unwisely close to her to ask what she's been sulking about this whole time. Her glare snaps up to him, Kagome almost looking enraged, and he cringes away from the expression.

Damn girl! Them's some STRONG words.

Even their friends are taken-aback, with Sango uttering her name in shock and Shippou peeking out from behind Miroku's shoulder to say how scary he finds her at the moment. Inuyasha holds a hand against his pounding chest for a speechless moment. Then he snaps too.

Before he can make good on this threat, Kagome sends him face-first into the dirt with a firm sit command. 

GIRL.

As Kagome continues to brood in front of a flattened Inuyasha, Sango asks Miroku what HE thinks. He says that while he doesn't know the specifics of their current conflict, he supposes it's probably Inuyasha's fault. BOY. Shippou adds that Kagome said so herself, and it's really sad that we SEE Kagome yelling at and slamming Inuyasha into the ground, but somehow no one is willing to question if she might be overreacting a bit. More than a bit. Like, A LOT. 

In a tree-top transition panel a speech bubble DOES question a suggestion to go apologize, but it's Inuyasha himself, crouching on the ground next to Miroku and asking why he should have to do that anyway. He probably doesn't even know WHAT he has to apologize for at this point. Miroku bypasses the question altogether in order to ask his own question: if Inuyasha is SURE he won't go after Kikyou. He glares, then hangs his head and says that he can't very well go look for her with Kagome in the mood she is. Sango is standing a short distance away, and poses a follow-up hypothetical about if Kagome had sent him off with a smile, would he have gone then. He just kind of stares at the ground, and it seems to dawn on him what the problem might be here.

Meanwhile, Kagome is resting her head on her arms crossed over her drawn-up knees, cursing herself for being horrible. She realizes that she worked herself up all by her lonesome and then took her frustration out on Inuyasha. She contemplates the possibility that he hates her now. Not likely that a malfunction like that would make him hate you - I still have them to this day and my husband manages to keep loving ME, lol.

What is this? Is he offering his hair for social grooming or something?

Kagome lifts her head, questioning what he wants. He asks if she's still angry. She looks off to the side and not-so-subtly asks if he isn't going after Kikyou. After a pause, Inuyasha tells her about his experience when he was alone at the foot of the mountain, fighting the youkai; he encountered Hijiri-sama, which he discovered was a human-shaped thing Kikyou was controlling like a puppet. He also mentions that he was told (not specifying by whom, though I think it might be interesting to Kagome how it was the same shikigami with which she was interacting) the real Kikyou was weakened by Naraku's miasma and running out of power. 

Kagome seems a little surprised that he seemed to know all this as she was finding it out as well. Inuyasha asks her what Kikyou's condition was like, looking crestfallen, ready for some painful news. 

Not so bad after all.

Another pause. Inuyasha asks if Kagome really did that purification for Kikyou, and Kagome simply answers in the affirmative. It wouldn't do to try and explain that she couldn't do otherwise, since that doesn't seem to be going so well for her in this instance. Inuyasha just says that he sees, and again they are left in awkward silence. Kagome thinks that the conversation seems to be revealing the truth where her own bad feelings were obscuring it - Inuyasha was worried. That much is at least understandable to her.

Kagome tells Inuyasha not to hold himself back on her account and encourages him to go after Kikyou. Inuyasha whips around to face her and firmly assert that he's not going. He says she shouldn't force herself to be okay with it either, then asks for confirmation that she said she saved Kikyou. Kagome says that she did, so Inuyasha says that it's alright, and he won't go after Kikyou. No need to check on her if Kagome says she's alright, after all. 

With some hesitation, Kagome asks Inuyasha if he's sure, and he puts back on his irritated expression when he affirms he is, following up with a request that she take back what she said. Kagome makes a noise of confusion. 

That blank stare says it all, doesn't it? She admits, in perfect innocence that she did indeed forget, and asks if she really did say it. Inuyasha claws at the air in frustration, asking if she has ANY idea how much that hurt his feelings. I do not see Kagome apologize for it, whether she remembers or not, but I DO see in the next panel that their friends are observing. Sango seems amazed that this was what Inuyasha was worried about, and Shippou callously calls him petty. 

What is with this framing? I just...

Anyway, narrow sky transition panel, leading back to Miss Abi, standing in front of that cave in the cliff-side at which Naraku first met her. The voice from within questions a suggestion to kill Naraku, but Abi argues that no good will come from getting involved with the guy. I would argue additionally that no good HAS come from getting involved with him thus far, but far be it from Abi to admit to having fucked this one up big time. She says that they've had nothing but MORE interference, and gathering all that human blood to dilute the poison in the cave-mom's body is actually going WORSE than before. This must be the slowest-acting poison in the WORLD.

Cave-mom's eye peers out at Abi as she continues to complain that she, the great Princess Abi, has been dragged into a quarrel between lowly hanyou. How humiliating! After letting the whining wind down, Cave-mom suggests that Abi break into a certain castle she's noticed. It appears Abi has not been so observant, bopping around here and there trying to gather blood, and asks about the castle she is just now hearing about.

I don't know, you two have been fairly bad at drawing inferences from information so far...

So, what did I think of this chapter overall? As you can probably tell, I was NOT impressed with the way everyone was treating Inuyasha in this one. Kagome's pure emotional reaction was understandable - it was still SHITTY, and Inuyasha did not deserve it, but it was still UNDERSTANDABLE. I have had my fair share of embarrassing malfunctions in that vein, so it's not as though I can't imagine someone acting this way under these circumstances. 

And she acknowledges that she was being horrible in that moment, that she was taking out her raw feelings on Inuyasha, which was wrong. That's why I'm so greatly disappointed that we never saw an actual APOLOGY from her. Not just for the "I hate you" line, but just the really harsh attitude she had towards him the moment he showed up. If she needed a moment to be alone and calm the fuck down, she should have said so, but not saying she's sorry for her words and behavior there was an additional jerk move.

Yes, even for something Kagome doesn't remember saying. Frankly, I thought Inuyasha showed some major vulnerability admitting right then and there that Kagome's words hurt him, so it should have given her even more of a reason to ask for forgiveness. To know that she could hurt a guy who doesn't scrape all that easily with an offhand angry thing she said and doesn't even mean is a lot of potential for unintended cruelty that she just kind of... ignores. 

It's not any better that their friends all jump to the most uncharitable conclusions regarding Inuyasha's role in the whole fiasco, and assume that HE'S the one being petty and mean. I mean, guys, you SAW Kagome being the jerk here, how are you seriously twisting your brains in knots to make him the one at fault???

Whatever. At least Abi seems to have grown a little bit of a brain at the end of the chapter. Someone had to, I guess.